Changes
There have been some changes in the school recently that I have found frustrating and I have come away from class not filled with a feeling of exhileration but with annoyance a few times. I have come to terms with the idea that I will be a lower rank than the people I have been training with all along, I am still shown the same respect which is fine but there have been more disturbing changes. 6 months ago I was invited to join the ranks of the seniors to train with rather than the beginners, they saw that I could cope with this intensity of training. Over the past 6 months all the other beginners have been invited to join this same leadership team as well. Now, withuot any communication there has been an additional class created for the seniors and the instructor training group and I find myself removed from training with the seniors again. I obtain most value from working with the seniors and find it very frustrating just being among the people that have little or no martial arts experience at all. I love to spa, but it is not nearly as fun when you are teaching your opponent to spa rather than being able to work your skills.
But I am just a white belt. What can this teach me? Well I am being put in the position to play a leadership role within the group which I would not get otherwise. Maybe it is that old humility lesson again that keeps trying to teach me to take my time and not be in such a hurry to learn kung fu. Maybe it is time to just accept this and focus on my basics before I try and build too much on a poor foundation. Maybe it is time to push the authority and stand up for what I want.
The one thing there is no doubt about is that there are a whole bunch of lessons out there for me to learn from this experience.
Nick
Yellow stripe sash
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